STOP this rollercoaster, I NEED to get off!

Oh boy, where do I start.

I am BEAT, exhusted, emotionally and physically run down, and I want to get off this stupid rollercoster called LIFE!

The other day I blogged about how Riley wanted nothing to do with the new Spinoza bear she recieved as a gift. Well, after some time of dressing it up, and playing with it, she finally made the big move to have the music on at night. Now... she doesn't want to ever be away from it. She even asked if we could take it to the grocery store the other day.

Well, tonight....things have taken a turn for the worst I am afraid. Spinoza isn't wanting to play anymore. The cassette player may be shot, already. Riley cried and cried tonight when we could not get him to work. I am fearing the worst here. She has now become BF with the bear and it's broke, I think.

How is this happening? Can't this poor girl catch a friggin' break?

I honestly feel like I am carrying my emotions for the both of us. I can't bearly keep my eyes open anymore......how am I going to have the strength to pull her through too?

Tomorrow is her last day of school until we both go back together. I am dreading it. Hopefully she will have a great day, and it will all end on a good note.

Good night.


Michelle said...

Hey there! I've been thinking of you a lot. I hope today went well - did Carson's trip go okay?

I feel so, so bad for Riley. I hope her bear begins to work again SOON. You're right - that girl needs a break. She's a super star, and deserves only the best!

I hope her day at school goes great!

BoufMom9 said...

OH! I'm so sorry you are so stressed right now. It's probably going to get worse before it gets better. You are just getting so close to the date and it's weighing on you.
Try to have faith anf you will find the strength from places you don't even know you have it.
Please believe it and you will be strong enough to see this through for yourself and for Riley.

my4kids said...

I hope the bear starts working again! Have you checked the website to see if it has suggestions or anything?

I'm sorry your feeling so worn out by things. That is so hard.

Kristen said...

Oh no!! I'm so sorry that's happened. Perhaps you can exchange him for a new one? I'd call the place that sells them and see. Seems they would have the greatest understanding of how important these bears can be for kids in Rileys shoes. I would hop they'd be sympathetic about that. (((HUGS))) I hope you get it figured out. When is the big surgery day again? Good luck!

Kristen said...

We see Dr. Frim at 10am on Feb. 21. Didn't you say you have a followup appointment that day too?

Hey, is the RMDH in walking distance to his office? The Hospital? (are they in the same place?) I'm just trying to figure out if we should rent a car. Didn't you say something about a shuttle? ACK!

Anonymous said...


You will survive this!!!!! I promise. You and your family are in my daily prayers. Trust that they will be answered. Sometimes they are answered in unexpected ways.

Get ready to smile.............Christine got Club Scrap to give Riley some beads. She will bring them to me on Sunday.

I believe she just caught a break.
I realize this is a small thing, but sometimes we need to hold on to the small things. Those are the things that will carry you though the tough times.

Paige and Amber would love to distract her and you for that matter. :) They are the distracting type. Give us a call! We can set something up to give you the beads too.

God Bless you!

Thoughts and prayers,

Anonymous said...

Thinking lots of you guys today. This is one of the hardest corners to round... Know if you need an ear, I'm here to listen.

Did you start a caring page site for Riley? Just let us know if the updates will be here or somewhere else next week. I feel like I'm stalking you...lol...but I have to know how you all are, and keep tabs on Riley's recovery. :)

(((Cindy))) ~ give Riley a gentle hug too.