After 8 years...

 I am employed again!! I am not sure how I really feel about it, but its 1 hour a day working at one of the Middle schools in town. If anything, its a foot in the door for the future. That's a good start, right?

I know I promised to blog at least twice a week, and I am still trying to do that, but I started another blog that is private to chat about my life since I have been reunited with my birth family. I needed a place to vent with only a few of my closest friends. Its been great to get stuff off my chest without the "judgement".
Everyone hears about the biological family, but nobody ever hears how hard it is being the adoptee. I needed a place to call my own, and now I have one.

I know

Again, I know I start my entries with..." I know its been awhile since I have blogged", but gees, Its about time that I blogged!

I used to use my blog time as ME time, and for some funny reason my ME time has been slipping away from me, and I miss it. I have lost all focus of finding ME, and it has all turned to my hubby and the kids.

I hate inside who I have become, the wife, the mother, the person... I hate it all. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore, and that scares me.

I am finding myself doing things that I wouldn't normally do.

I am finding that I haven't been in contact with the most of the people who I used to have daily contact with.

I am finding I am not in contact with the people I love most....

I HATE IT!

I need to turn my life clock back about 6 months and start over again.

As many of you know I have been in contact with my biological family. Most parts are great and some things are not so good. It was consuming my life for most of the summer and I think that is when I truly started slipping away from myself. I used to like who I was, the mother that I was, the wife I was, and now.... eh!.

Maybe if I start with baby steps...like getting my ME timeback, I will begin to "like" me again.

So, blogging world... I am back.

I vow to post at least twice a week!!

Lets see where this takes me!!

Anyone willing to help?