So far behind..no time for computer

Oh, I am so far behind in my blogging. To be honest, I haven't had much time to be on the computer. Its sort of funny, but my 40 minute a day job sort of screw up my day. Crazy, I know. Since I am here, lets recap all that has been going on.

1. My babies turned 5 on Nov 15th.

2. My 7 yr olds are preparing to receive their First Reconciliation, so we have been studying, memorizing prayers, going to special classes, studying some more......

3. I was diagnosed with being pre diabetic.

4. I am on the school PTA and in charge of the Reflections program; Dec 14th.

5. Working noon supervision at one of Appleton's finest Jr. Highs

6. Found out I will be having bladder surgery on Dec 27th

7. Doing homework with kids.

8. Happy Thanksgiving!

9. Dieting and exercising so I can kick the "pre diabetic" thing to the curb - NO TIME to deal with that!

10. Making hats for all the kids in Carson and Cooper's class

11. Mentoring a mom who's daughter has craniosynostosis and will be having surgery on Dec 30th.

12. Dealing with sick kids

13. Christmas shopping

14. Trying to help Riley through a slump.

OK, So you get the picture......

Calgon, take me away!!!!

A hard week

Its been a hard week in the Cole house. This past Thursday, Riley and Keegan's teacher passed away from surgery complications. She had been fighting cancer for a few years and was scheduled for a hysterectomy. She came through surgery fine, but then had a brain aneurysm and passed away unexpectedly. I went to school with the kids on Friday, and oh what a sad place school was. I was totally amazed at all the support that was around for the kids and staff. I am so thankful for being in such a fantastic school district!!
Thank you for being such a fantstic Teacher, and a wonderful woman!

 

Rest in peace Andera Oppelt!

 

Riley and Keegan miss you!!

After 8 years...

 I am employed again!! I am not sure how I really feel about it, but its 1 hour a day working at one of the Middle schools in town. If anything, its a foot in the door for the future. That's a good start, right?

I know I promised to blog at least twice a week, and I am still trying to do that, but I started another blog that is private to chat about my life since I have been reunited with my birth family. I needed a place to vent with only a few of my closest friends. Its been great to get stuff off my chest without the "judgement".
Everyone hears about the biological family, but nobody ever hears how hard it is being the adoptee. I needed a place to call my own, and now I have one.

I know

Again, I know I start my entries with..." I know its been awhile since I have blogged", but gees, Its about time that I blogged!

I used to use my blog time as ME time, and for some funny reason my ME time has been slipping away from me, and I miss it. I have lost all focus of finding ME, and it has all turned to my hubby and the kids.

I hate inside who I have become, the wife, the mother, the person... I hate it all. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore, and that scares me.

I am finding myself doing things that I wouldn't normally do.

I am finding that I haven't been in contact with the most of the people who I used to have daily contact with.

I am finding I am not in contact with the people I love most....

I HATE IT!

I need to turn my life clock back about 6 months and start over again.

As many of you know I have been in contact with my biological family. Most parts are great and some things are not so good. It was consuming my life for most of the summer and I think that is when I truly started slipping away from myself. I used to like who I was, the mother that I was, the wife I was, and now.... eh!.

Maybe if I start with baby steps...like getting my ME timeback, I will begin to "like" me again.

So, blogging world... I am back.

I vow to post at least twice a week!!

Lets see where this takes me!!

Anyone willing to help?

LOST A.....

Do you ever feel like you life is slipping away from you so fast that you have no idea which way to turn first?Have you ever felt like you've lost your best friend or that you are stuck in the middle of a corn field and cant find your way out?Ever feel like all the people who are important in your life are no longer just an arms reach away?Or that your scale is playing a nasty trick on you but you know deep down you need to do something about it?Ever feel like you are about to bungie jump and instead of stopping,you keep flying up and down?

I do.

Trip

Let me first start out by saying....It is so good to be home! What is it about vacations? Why are we always so excited to leave, but we are always more excited to be home afterwards?

Ummm.

My parents, the kids, and I drove out to New Jersey in July to see my mom's family. My gram is in a nursing home and is not very excited to be there, but let me tell you, her face lit up when she saw my kiddos. She was so proud to have her great grandchildren there with her! It was a beautiful thing!!

On top of visiting with family, we did a few fun things as well! My highlight from this trip was being able to get to a New York Yankee game! It was fantastic to say the least!!

It was HOT!

My "main" guy ~ Jorge Posada! If you guys dont know this man, you need too! He is not just a fantastic player, but a fantastic human being! Jorge and Laura also have a child with Craniosynostosis . Jorge jr. has been through 10 different surgeries to correct his skull.

10 yrs ago, Jorge and Laura Posada started the Jorge Posada Foundation to help support families who had been touched with craniosynostosis. Last year Carson and Cooper were invited to the Jorge Posada foundation Gala in New York City and and we had blast. We chatted with Jorge, Laura, and many other families who has been touched with this condition. It was a very nice evening. Something I will always remember.

Derek (clap, clap, clap), Jetter (clap, clap,clap)

A -Rod hit 599 while we were out in NY, but decided to wait a bit longer on 600!

Congrats Alex!

For you that may not know, Alex started his career right here in my home town with the Appleton Foxes!

We took the kids (Joe too) to the Statue of Liberty

And it was HOT!

We took them to the Empire State Building

We walked around NYC - you just never know who you will meet on the street!

And we had a bit a play time too! Did I mention it was HOT?

We had a fantastic time and we can wait to get back out there again soon!

Away

Oh, I have so much to blog about and so little time right now! The kids and I are away in New Jersey with my parents visiting my granny in the nursing home.

We've left my poor hubby at home to fend off all the dangerous storms that have come through our home town. What a mess that has been!! Matt, we miss you!!

Anyhow.... I cant wait to get home to blog about our journey out East. Its been a fantastic trip!

See you when I get home!